Hello. Yes, it has been an awfully long time since I have written here. Considering my advocacy for regular posting, consistent conversation and meeting expectations, I haven’t been doing too well myself. I could sit here and make excuses. Actually, I will in a moment, but before I do I just wanted to apologise for not maintaining either the blog or the podcast for the past couple of months. The blog and the podcast are our foundations, and I haven’t been doing a particularly good job of maintaining them. If I was an engineer, I’d be fired by now.
Sometimes, though, I find that the tank just starts running dry. When you spend your working life living and breathing social media, you sometimes start thinking ‘what can I add that hasn’t already been spoken about (eloquently) by Chris Brogan, Neville Hobson or Brian Solis‘? ‘How can my little voice actually add anything to the conversation’? ‘Am I contributing, or am I just adding to the noise’? And worse – ‘am I being authentic, or am I just being jolly and positive to fit in with the crowd’? Overall, I have been puddling along with almost no fuel in my tank and wondering why I have struggled to make good on my commitments.
However, I don’t think these thoughts are bad ones. In fact, I think they are probably things which everyone who blogs should think about every now and then. I don’t want to just regurgitate what others are saying – I really want to put my opinion across and give my point of view. If I don’t then I am not really providing value. And I am not being at all authentic. Authenticity isn’t just being honest about who you are. It is being honest about what you think, and open about whatever difficulties you may have. I worry sometimes that rather than being myself in my blog posts, I slip into ‘work mode’ (which is probably not unlike my ‘posh telephone voice’) when what I really want to do is say what I really think. I think that because I am using ‘posh telephone’ mode, I am running out of steam. It’s not my natural state.
So that’s what’s been going on and I am determined to do something to fix it. I am acutely aware that the blog and podcast are our way of communicating with anyone who wants to listen. And what they want to hear is us. The real us. Not the work us. It’s what blogging should be all about.
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